jaswannabeme

… unexpectedly, you came into my life. I was not ready but I know I want you. Trying to hide the secrets, but you made me glow, The happiness, it just show. You made me look forward to the life ahead. Though the days were long… The waiting was exciting. Knowing you’re there, made me want you even more, To hold, to kiss, and give you all my attention. The moment has arrived, such a commotion, the excitement.. The pain faded-away when I hold you in my arms, And fell-in-love again… you made my life complete. And I thank God for you… I LOVE YOU

Love Struck II I wait for you To protect and comfort me. Action speak louder than words, Can you see, can you feel it thru. I hope and longed for you to hold my hand. In person, in life, beside you, entwined. Admire each beauty what our eyes can see. Our hearts beats as one and be free. Your voice, music to my ears. Your breath, gives warmth to my flesh. My heart aches, wanting you here... Why does it hurt so, to be in love???

Smile II ... and the world smiles with you. But can you see, can you tell what my heart longing to yell?

Words "Action speak louder than words" that's what I thought... but I was mistaken for "words" can strike to the core of your being. You never touch a finger on me, never hurt me physically... but the "words" you are using are spiteful and as deadly. I might be naive, or so you think. throwing "words" everytime you pleases. It hurt so much, the pain is deeper. Like a slap on my face, a stab in my heart, a punch on my stomach, a kick on my back. "Words", the worst abuse I can fathom.

I closed my eyes hoping you are here, not only in my dreams but in reality, my dear.

...looking forward to go school, being with friends forget them all. didn't mind staying longer, wishing to stay much stronger. but reality striked, time to go back... the house is quiet,such an eerie ground. do i need to go inside or just turn around? wishing i don't belong here, if only i can disappear.    i tried to cover my ears, pretending i don't hear any. hoping it will end and tells me everything is just a query. i sob everytime, even letting you know. but with your hardheaded mind you ignore them all. i cried... no idea for how long, hoping when i woke-up, t'was just a dream, but i was wrong. God,

You came, my shining armour. The light of my life. You stayed,gave me yourself, satisfying all my desires. your support, a shoulder to cry-on. I cried, cry of happiness. What happened, you changed? what did i do wrong? I tried my best, pleases you to whatever you want. I'm not special anymore. I miss you... where are you? I cried, cry of emptiness. Why you lied to me? Why not just confront me? I know you're there, but pretending i was not. You know I'll understand... or I'll try to be. and now you're gone... and not coming back. I cried, cry of death.

Support i can get, a shoulder to cry-on, ears that willing to listen. An understanding nature. Be with me, hold me, hug me, don't let me go. Show me, guide me, Being wild and passionate. Amazing moments to keep. You changed me tremedously, a new person, jas "me". for you are what i see, being "you"... and i want you to be. I don't want you to change, and i'll not be to you. Being open is important. What else do you want me to? Beacause all i want is YOU... I LOVE YOU.

strong built, healthy body, hunky man, such a hottie. i will hug you so tight, featherly kisses, tongue teases. hands exploring, fingers caressing. will give you goosebumps, sensations that excite. will love you to be my teddy... squeezing you will be heady. my pillow between my thighs, my human blanket to keep me warm. cozy feeling to be with you what a treat, what a man.